“Can you help me with my Chinese homework?”
That question led to the start of tutoring an 8 year old. Looking back at today’s amk outreach, he taught me a few things. I admit I was a bit hesitant to help him at first knowing that it wasn’t my strength in the language. However, it got me reflecting that whether or not we might deem ourselves as “not capable” or “under-qualified” to do the task, ultimately, it is to show God’s love to the people who needed it the most. In His way, He guides and aids us during the situation.
So as I taught the boy how to write his essay, this quote came to mind, “Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.”
It was rather tempting to just write the essay for him or to throw the answers directly at him, and given that he was being reluctant to do it, made it almost slant towards “giving him the fish”. But I knew it can’t be done in the long run if any of us doesn’t visit the boy’s home. To add to the mix, the person tagged to me had a slightly different teaching methodology and tried to push other ideas, making the poor boy so lost and losing focus.
But the end of this small tutoring, I’m thankful he can “fish” for some small catch using google translate (though in my opinion was not the most favourable method). Teaching the boy made me realised that parenting probably have a similar thread to this situation and I guess there is some truth in it.
And though our actions might not amount to something big to this little boy, hopefully it is a step closer for him to grow to be more independent and catch an even bigger fish.
Have you ever felt like you are alone not knowing how to handle a situation you are placed upon right at that moment?
Multiple times have I felt that way. Since the last half a year, it seems that I’ve been thrown to the deep end of the sea and left to fend for my own. Often wadding around to try to stay afloat and find a direction to swim towards. Certain times a float would come along to aid for that period, but then it is soon met with the next challenge ahead.
I do wonder how to go about navigating through all of this… And in times like these, I hope to see His sufficient grace and for people to encourage and guide me.
And maybe, just maybe, to have a listening ear and some rest.
“In friendship…we think we have chosen our peers.
In reality a few years’ difference
in the dates of our births,
a few more miles between certain houses,
the choice of one university instead of another…
the accident of a topic being raised or not raised at a first meeting
–any of these chances might have kept us apart.
But, for a Christian, there are, strictly speaking no chances.
A secret master of ceremonies has been at work.
Christ, who said to the disciples, “Ye have not chosen me, but I have
chosen you,” can truly say to every group of Christian friends,
“Ye have not chosen one another but I have chosen you for one another.”
The friendship is not a reward for our discriminating and good taste
in finding one another out. It is the instrument by which God reveals
to each of us the beauties of others.”
– C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves
I admit, I felt like I was being tossed up in the sea.
Sighing became the form of language spoken.
Knowing that it was just not worth it at all.
Though we were distance apart, your concern showed.
And when the words surfaced, it hits to the soul.
Knowing that the seed has taken root, encouraging where it needs.
Thank you my friends for today and for what you said.
What if’s. What now’s. Where to’s.
It’s easy at times to look back to the past and be fixated on it.
To look to the present and get hurt by it by what you see or hear.
And to a future that seems like a distant unknown.
It has been so long. And it still feels long.
When will it ever end?
Let me look to what is ahead and not dwell on the old.
Be my guide, and lead me to something new.
Something I have never ventured yet on my own.
It’s hard to believe what might hold, where pain might be.
No matter how the past is, greater things are yet to come.
Help me to hold on to that truth.