It take so much effort to make it work after all. Questions after questions with no answers, and no conclusions, I cannot help but think I feel alone in this. Sometimes I wonder if I have the strange ability to appear invisible, and the sense of being overlooked, ignored and even left out of the team swells, as though I do not matter in their eyes.
It is probably a message that I might have believed and feared. And though I know God wants me out of this crippling and pervasive lie, deep down it hurts, it really hurts. I really want to have reassurance from all of this but things looks so weary. God, keep company with me that I may learn to live freely and lightly.