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The Deep End

Have you ever felt like you are alone not knowing how to handle a situation you are placed upon right at that moment?

Multiple times have I felt that way. Since the last half a year, it seems that I’ve been thrown to the deep end of the sea and left to fend for my own. Often wadding around to try to stay afloat and find a direction to swim towards. Certain times a float would come along to aid for that period, but then it is soon met with the next challenge ahead.

I do wonder how to go about navigating through all of this… And in times like these, I hope to see His sufficient grace and for people to encourage and guide me.

And maybe, just maybe, to have a listening ear and some rest.


A sense of disappointment sweep over me. The feeling that I let a good friend down by my actions. The question was whether my honesty was the liability and that I misplaced the trust which should have been protected. There were really no ill intentions, because I still care. But it is a knock on my head, that I really should have placed myself in the other person’s shoe.
I do wish I had answers.
Answers to know how to sort this out.
Answers to speak in difficult situations.
Answers to know that all is well.


The feeling was so great when the response came back opposite of what I had imagined and anticipated it to be. Throughout the day, I could not help but reason out why it had to be this way and feel the sense of unfairness brewing inside me. This was not the first time, and there was an itch to respond, if not to argue back to what was mentioned. But I held back, knowing that it was not wise to do so. I struggled to find a reason to this disappointment, but was not sure if it was what it was and can only wait upon God for an answer.
To add to that, a colleague shared certain things that was of concerned at work. It scares me a bit that what was said was real and maybe I was putting it on deaf ears. And due to this, I cannot help but feel empathy towards another colleague who is facing it because of this situation. While this is apparent in any line of work, my hope is that people can be transparent and also more forthcoming towards each other.
But through all of this, I can only keep reminding myself that when the waves of disappointments come and knocks me back and forth, only God remains.

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A long pause and there is a certain sense of hesitance to articulate it now. It is days like these that there are a lot more questions than answers. Somehow clarity does not seem to be in the picture and jadedness becomes apparent.
Lord, let the peace that comes from You rule in my heart.

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I had no inclination of getting Joan on such a unique date but it just suddenly dawned on me about it. A day that was mixed with blues yet it was filled with joy for what had happened on that day. All I can say is that God is gracious. Looking forward to expanding my horizon with this guitar. (:

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