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Meeting with old friends was quite a walk down memory lane. Our conversations of the past held so much experiences, laughter and old tales, as though it was just a couple of days ago since it happened. From the time we knew each other in our poly days, to army daze and exploring the new territories of studies (overseas and locally), I must say that this bunch has grown and changed over the span of our 8 years friendship. Many of us fresh-faced have stepped into the working world as interior designers, architects, and not forgetting our pastor-to-be. Though meet ups are rare, it was such a blessing to be able to have the chance to meet them all especially when everyone works on such different schedules.

The atmosphere was light-hearted as it goes and updating each other about friends we have been in contact. And somehow, all of us had a desire to see a reunion of sorts happen among our course mates. Just like how it was during our poly days, we would have BBQs and outings and no matter how many cliques there may be, somehow everyone came together and chipped in. Even so, in this season some are seeing a greater need and purpose for these meet ups as timely opportunities to be seized for His kingdom and I think it is great that even beyond graduation, that there is a higher purpose.

However, I smelled the rat when someone mentioned the BBQ was a way to invite your other half to the dinner and had tried to ask me to do so. And while the person did it out of good nature and said I shouldn’t wait and because we’re “getting to the age”, I jokingly remarked that this must be some peer pressure going on among them. Especially when the group almost went into a “gossip central” channel trying to poke more into another friend about his life.

The question did left me asking the “What ifs” about relationships. But it was a note to self that God has good things in stored for me. If I fail to see that God completes me and should be above in everything, I am making a false idol out of thinking the guy completes me fully. And that was why I could understand it from my male friend’s point of view why he would say that. I do think that sometimes things like these are quite delicate issues and maybe it isn’t just him but probably my friends must have been feeling the pressure or even concern that age is catching up on them to find someone. If only they knew that that is a Heavenly Father who loves them, with plans to prosper them and not to harm them and to give them such hope and future through Him.

If only they knew. If only.

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In His Time

Fear gripped the doctor just as he was about to start an operation on a patient for a brain haemorrhage. In that second, flashbacks reminded him of the same procedure he had done previous on his own younger brother. Because of certain complications that arose, his brother died while in surgery, leaving the doctor devastated.

Sensing his distress, his mentor gave him leave to rest and mourn the death of his brother, instead, the doctor went into reclusion and guilt. He would not eat or sleep because he blamed himself for not saving but “killing” his own brother. Despite his mother telling him that she dreamt of his younger brother being in a better place, the doctor doubted, thinking that his brother was still angry with him and did not appear in his own dreams.

Days later, as the doctor and mother were leaving their house to head to their brother’s memorial, his eyes caught sight of a young chap playing at the basketball court. The boy looked exactly like his younger brother! Filled with curiously, he walked towards him. The basketball rolled over and the doctor picked it up, and was face to face with the teenager.

However, it was not his brother. The boy greeted the doctor by name, reminding the doctor that he had recently gone through a heart transplant surgery and he was one of the doctors who visited him. The boy further explained how grateful he was for the donor who gave him a new heart and mentioned that if he did not receive any, he would have died and not be as active to live life as he is now.

That was when the doctor realised that the boy’s heart was his younger brother’s. True to his younger brother’s nature for helping and serving the community when he was alive, he had requested that his organs were donated when he passed on. At that point, a tear ran down the doctor’s cheek. As he wiped that tear, he smiled, knowing that his younger brother’s legacy still lived on in many other people.
It was interesting that God spoke through a HK drama show two days back. The episode was a timely message as the last few days had been a time of grieving the loss of a dear brother and cell member, Mark. Just like the character in the show, there was a sense of guilt that more could have been done. But it was clear, that was not the thing to dwell on. Instead, it was about remembering him and his life.
Mark’s life was truly a testimony of God’s grace and hand at work. He showed me what it means to persevere through life and being an overcomer in Christ during his long recovery from his accident. He had a heart that was willing to serve and pray for others despite having weaknesses and failings. His actions spoke of his commitment to God and towards worshipping Him wholeheartedly. I never forgot the time he came up to me and prayed. It was not expected but it was truly humbling.
I thank God for knowing Mark and for the friendship and journey. While there are many other instance I could mention here, I decided I leave with this verse that struck a chord with me during this grieving period.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22-23

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For the last three consecutive days, the feeling of being solemn is present.
News of my friends’ close ones passing away one after another has gripped me. While it might look like coincidence that three individuals passed away within the span of three days, I do not think its a something to be taken lightly.
But it did left me a little distracted at my desk.
Attending the wakes reminded me so much of my late maternal and paternal grandmas. The journey before their end had its rocky situations and lots of questions start to play in the mind. It was not an easy time and that sinking feeling that someone dear to you has moved on, leaves a hole in the heart.
However, it makes me realise that the hole can be filled. It was not by what human thinks of as the method of cure but only through God that can make it whole again.

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The New Lady

Lord, let me be a woman in this generation that wants to be known for following Jesus. Allow these beautiful truths to sink deep down into my heart and to those around too. Amen.

“She will truly have His heart and His eyes to see sons and daughters when she looks at His people.

She will be a doer of the word and not a hearer only.

She will refuse to judge and condemn and do her best to love people back to wholeness.

She will be a fountain of mercy and grace and one who will breathe life back into dry bones.

She will know that it is the love of God that breaks every yoke.

She will be a living epistle of love and humility and will demonstrate the scriptures with kindness and gentleness and compassion.

She will give credit where credit is due.

She will point others to Him. She will give Him all the glory. All of the honor. All of the credit.

She will understand fully- the truth that is this. If it were not for the grace of God- there go I.

She will reach to the back row and encourage and minister to the hearts of the women who can’t get past the grief and sorrow of their own life.

She will look past circumstances and situations and appearances that look different than her own to see daughters of the living God who have yet to discover their worth.

The new church lady is looking for opportunities to be a blessing- instead of looking for her own opportunities.

The new church lady knows that the only way up is down. She knows that “humility isn’t thinking less of yourself but it is thinking of yourself less.”

Graciousness is her hallmark.

Gratitude is her beauty treatment.

She is a woman of her word.

She is a worshipper. In spirit and in truth.

She is a prayer warrior and holds trust from others as sacred.

She is supportive of others and is not an opportunist.

She understands that to become the Proverbs 31 woman- you can’t skip chapters 1-30.

She is fully aware of her own shortcomings and seeks Him daily for His love and guidance.

She recognizes hopelessness and worthlessness in others and speaks life.

She is an excellent listener. She listens with her head and her heart. She hears what is not being said.

She is a lifter. An encourager. A hope giver.

She forgives- fully.

She knows that the same grace that was made available to her- is also available to everyone else.

She does not gossip. She does not constantly brag or boast. She speaks blessing.

She sees the best. Believes the best. Hopes the best.

She places a high value on God’s people.

She invests in the greatest investment in the world.
She is known for what she stands for.”

But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy, good fruit, impartial and sincere. ~ James 3:17
Abstracted from http://pearlsandgrace.blogspot.sg/2014/01/the-new-church-lady.html

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Ain’t 3 by 5

“God is faithful. And when our little bit of faith would intersect with His faithfulness, God shows up big, and does amazing things in us and through us.”
WOW. After watching the video of this testimony of forgiveness, love and mercy by this pastor, I am reminded that my life isn’t just within a 3 by 5 especially after feeling like a whirlwind had hit me today and left me upset. Have to see that God has a much bigger picture and plan for all of us.

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